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Letting go
On the hands of an older man
are the lines of gods command.
Poisoned by youth, set free by age.
Having only one more chapter,
now turning the page.
In a cold a callossed world,where
time can take its toll.
This man has lost the battle of body and soul.
Waiting now for death to set him free,
He turns the final page, The End, Eternally.

Brian Kelley

May I ask a question
Where can I run from your spirit, and flee from your presence. When late at night Im all alone, and wish not to regain conscious. Where thers no warm body to keep me from the chill, of the coldness of this harsh world. When those who you love the most hurt you deep within. When you cry out late at night for something to believe in, and there seems to be no answer , no way to bring this to and end. If only rocks could cry and trees bend down to pray, Then perhaps Ill find the answer on that final day. Till then the widns must blow and seasons must change, Yet tommorow is a new day and nothing stays the same. Though we dont know why and spend forever wondering how. All that we aresure of is what is here and now.

Brian Kelley

If there was an us
Face to face against the grain. Wind blows on down pour of rain. Floods my heart like flowing seas. Calms my mind, puts my soul at ease. Standing at the base of the mountain high, Staring up at a moon lit sky. Seeing the path lain out in front of me. Taking a peek at my eternity. Having not seen you there. I close my eyes in deep despair. Its not a life I want to lead. Knowing your not here with me , So Ill run away in disgust, Because there will never be an us.

Brian Kelley

Ive got to say something
Why was it that you couldnt listen the first four times I asked, Why now am I made out to feel like such an ass. How long should I have let it go and hoped it would get better. Why am I reduced to writting my feelings in a letter. For all the things that were said and all the things that were done. After the inconsideration now Im the blameful one. When I needed someone to talk to, I had to keep it to myself. for if I didnt Id be punished and put on the shelf. As long as I made beleive that everything was fine. Life was supposed to be okay but couldnt speak my mind. Now that I have to you time and time again, you just wouldnt listen, and you dont know why it has to end, Its not that I dont love you. Cause I couldnt love another more. Its because I love myself that I do this for. Right now nobody knows it, and for me that will do. Everyone who tells me about it say they hear it from you. Im not really bothered by what they say or do the only thing that bothers me is being around you. Its been said that if I loved, I would not do such. Whereas should I have felt that way if I was loved so much. To say it doesnt hurt would be a blatent lie. You could see it every evening with every tear I cry. So Ill step back and take the blame for all that has gone wrong. Although my shoulders are broud my eill isnt that strong. So label me the bad guy, say that I am mean. In all actuallity Im the most pathetic thing youve ever seen. I have loved someone with all of my heart, I needed to take it back before it ripped both our lives apart.

Brian Kelley

I really dont want anything
Truth be told life is never peachy as it seems. Full of heartache, dissappointments and unanswered dreams. So many time were left behind by those who dont understand. my vow to you is to be true, and not that kind of man. Although I feel there culd be more. I anxiously await whats in store. Understand me please, Im not trying to rush butknow the truth this is a crush. Though I can wait for that time to begin. Im very happy to be just a friend. Just a few thoughts I wanted you to know, so that our relationship as it is can grow. A couple of lines for you to hear, to let you know I am sincere.

Brian Kelley

Why do we lust
Why do we lust I ask myself, what makes me feel this way?
Surely not the love of another, not since that very day.
That day when I had come of age and put away childish things.
That day when I dreamed of vows and ingagement rings.
The one true love I was seeking found an instant past.
For an eternity I thought this love would last.
Why should I think of anything else, I have this girl to please.
But for an eternity was not that long, Not as long as I thougt it to be.
For here love was not so true never had she planned.
to consumate and vow her love with a wedding band.
For another with a fancy car swept her fast away.
And soon deep inside her he stole my dreams away.
As fast as he came and took her away. He dropped her back off with seven more months til a wee tiny babe.
I cannot deny for in her theres not trust but in me steems the question Why do we lust?

Brian Kelley

Yes there is a heaven
Excuse me sir I must confess whats running through my mind.
Just in case you get the chance to search your heart and find.
A place unlike none other where many dreams come true.
Where you live your life just like a king no matter what you do.
Mistakes are few and far between and nothing you do goes unseen.
A home where warmth and love do flow, thru your soul.
and line your mind like the purest gold.
I tell you sir this is so true, to make you believe what must I do.
I know your thinking Im full of lies, I know for sure it exists in my wifes eyes.
For its there that Im a king and its there Im have freedom to sing.
So yes sir there is a heaven if only by disguise.
But some day I pray when I die that I may stay in mine lovers eyes.

Brian Kelley