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Solstice
Solstice comes but once a year
The Winter snow are Nature's tears
A time of Reflection...
Contemplation...
And Cheer
For some "tis the Season" when all gather near
What looks like endings is merely a disguise
For there's no greater Wisdom...
Earth Mother is wise
The beauty of the Autum leaves...
Is merely just a gentle tease
The coming of the frigid cold...
Mother Earth is growing old
I Believe we're all here for a reason
Though the message isn't always quite clear
Caught up in our anguish and suffering
Blinded and clouded by fear
I Believe there's an Energy within us
A Knowing that guides us today
That Order can come out of Chaos...
Bending gently along the way
I Believe in our own Inner Wisdom
The Voices we hear in our heads
Understanding...
The pain of healing
Opportunity
When you see the positive instead

Duf '99

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MY MIND IS LIKE A MANSION...
A SPACE WITH MANY ROOMS
LOCKED AWAY AND DUSTY...
SAFE IN IT'S COCOON
I PEEK BETWEEN THE CURTAIN...
REALITY SHINES TOO BRIGHT
THE IMAGES ON THIS WINDOW...
ARE A MOST DISTURBING SIGHT
ALWAYS FIGHTING SOME BATTLE...
LIMITATION, DOUBT OR FEAR
TIRED OF BEING UNBALANCED...
WITH A DAMAGED RIGHT HEMISPHERE
MY WOUNDS ARE OPEN AND HEALING...
THE UGLINESS VISIBLE TO ME
TRYING TO KEEP THEM UNCOVERED...
VULERNABLE TO ALL WHO CAN SEE
MY HEART IS ENCASED AND HARDENED...
BLOCKED WITH MINIMAL RELEASE
STRUGGLING TO IDENTIFY FEELINGS...
EMPTY WORDS NEVER QUITE REACH THE GRIEF
I'M CONNECTED TO ALL THAT'S EXISTED...
THOUGH SPIRITUALITY IS DIFFICULT TODAY
REMEMBERING...
THAT ONCE MY ESSENCE SOARED DAILY...
NOW SADDENED...
SELDOM VISITS...
CAN'T PRAY

How Strong Is A Feather...Duf

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I'm scared, and I don't know what to do
The "magic" pill, I'm even afraid of you!
I fear myself...the energy flow inside
Just give me a corner...a blanket...
Somewhere safe to hide
It's not that I don't trust "you"
I want to do what's right...
But like a child when the light go out
I'm full of fear and fright!
It comes from somewhere in my head
I just can't seem to find
And even though my eyes are open...
To all that's said I'm blind
I'm frozen now...can't seem to move
Myself I cannot share
Please don't judge...or blow me off
My heart still thinks it cares

How Strong Is A Feather...Duf

Perceptions...
You don't know me at all
For the past twelve years I swear...
I've had no life at all!
My friends are gone
Low self-esteem
My career went out the door
I lay in bed the whole damn day
And just want to sleep some more
I miss the life I used to have...
When evrything was real
I miss my emotions deep inside...
When I wasn't afraid to feel
My life's been changed
It' rearranged
I have to start again
But it's so hard to trust myself...
Much less some brand new friends

How Strong Is A Feather...Duf

How strong is a Feather
You look at my appearance
And think you see
A reflection of someone you expect me to be
You've made a decision
There's nothing to say
My job is to tapdance...and act in your play
Well I'm real good at dancing
I'll bring down the house
But only if it's empty, and quiet as a mouse
I dance to your music
Only I hear my own tune
"Don't act too exhausted...it's not even noon"
And don't share frustration
Dare shed a tear
Express anxiety...or share what you fear
Just keep right on dancing
You look like you're fine
Things that are inside, take up too much time!
Just keep right on dancing
Swallow some pill
Things will be alright
Well only until...
I stop the dancing

How Strong Is A Feather...Duf

How strong is a Feather
How strong is a Feather...
That's used everyday
When it suddenly bends...
And you fall all the way
The losses continue...
More severe every year
I pull back unaffected...
Why waste one more tear?
Trapped in my circumstances...
Searching for a way out
Feelings of confusion...fear...and doubt
I'm agitated...frustrated
Throw in the towel
I've learned all the lessons...
And I still don't understand how!
Empty...Vacant
Sometimes an effort to hold on
Depression...nothing moves forward
Cracked...broken record
Repeating...old song

How Strong Is A Feather...Duf