Here is my story...

Hi well when I was 14 my mother had to go to the hospital because she was getting sick really sick, the worst part about my mother was the day she said she had AIDS full blown and I was reading a book that said HIV & AIDS not really think of how bad she wanted to tell us. Well it comes out of my grandma's mouth that she had AIDS, I looked at the book and then looked at my mother and broke down in tears, my mom saw me crying and she started to cry too and so did my grandma. My mom opened her arms and I ran right into them! But my sister Brandy moved her chair away from mom like if she was going to get AIDS from just sitting by her! That made me sooo mad! But when mom got out of prison she came home. I was sooo happy cuz I thought me and her can go to a lots of place's but I was wrong! I started to smok with my mom and my brother David wasn't living in the house at that time cuz he was being mean so my grandma had him moved out the house. Month's went by my mom was getting really sick half of the time. Sometimes we would go place and and we always take her with us, like one day all of us went to the brakers and my mother had to sit in a wheel chair, as we picked her up and put her in the wheel chair my mother started to p all over the wheel chair. Yes I can say that it was embarising but she was my mother. Well to just tell you what I said to was sooo wrong for me to do!! Me and mom were smoking and I gave her one cigarette cuz if I gave her the hole pack she'd probably brein down the house. Well grandma came home and yeiled at Tracey ( my mother) and she said I was the one that smoked in that room, but it really wasn't! Well I woke up by her yeiling at me saying " Amber you were somking in Tracey's new room". I was sooo mad that my mother said that, so after my grandma was done yeiling, I went to my mother's room and aked her (WHY) why did you lie! You were the one that was smoking in here!!! Then I said you know what you are no longer my mother and I'm no longer you daugther anymore! Cuz from now on you aren't anything to me, and I called her a bitch and to just stay the fuck out my life!! Then I left and went back to my room.

Well about a month later my mother was in the her room with her mother sitting whaching TV and that's when I heared my grandma screaming " Amber "!!!! I got up and ran to the room and saw my mother on the floor shaking with bobble's coming from her mouth, I screamed and droped to my keens and said "MOM" don't live me yet please MOM!! Well they took her at the colest hospital, grandma called and said she was still shaking then she said no she stoped shaking but the shaking was on and off. She was tranfred to St. Marey's hospital they thought she could have brain cancer and it truned out that she did! Well they said there was nothing they could do so we took her home to rest. Well I was in a group home cuz I couldn't stand whaching her suffer anymore. Well she died one August 3, 1997 3am church day too age 33.

Well that right their pritty much sums up my tearable childhood! Well I hope I can hear from you soon!

God Bless You All!!!

PS.Oh, does story's like this make you cry? Cuz I do when I talk about it!

Yes, I said told my mom I was SORRY! before she was know to die. I said I was sorry more then once. I said I was sorry for saying what I said to her! But I do regert it cuz I never heared her say Amber I forgive you! Out of the 4 of us my littlest sister is the only one who has HIV and her name is Janna....

Love,
Amber Lynn Williams...
Thank You ...

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