Following my hospitaliztion, which i can't say much about because i have no memory of it, I was in outpatient rehabilitation. At that time I could understand why i needed the physical therapy, because i had noticable difficulty getting around. But i could not see a reason for any of the other therapy. I had a Cognitive therapist....but i didn't need her....cuz I was fine. Speech therapy was the same as was OT. I just didn't believe that there was anything wrong with me! So since i was uncooperative they had to release me from therapy. I was in therapy for 9 months. So after being released from therapy I thought I had to be healed so I tried to go back to work. I was fired from about 10 different jobs before i faced the fact that i really wasn't able to do it. I had jobs that ranged from telemarketing to sweeping the floor of a beauty salon. I was fired from every one of them. The most frustrating thing about that was prior to my accident I had never been fired from a job, and at the time of my accident I was a retail sales assistant manager with a promotion to store manager coming. I went from being able to work 12 hrs plus a day to not even being able to handle two hrs. It was then that I started to realize that there was something wrong. So I gave up. Since the only thing i was capable of doing was watching TV and playing on the computer thats what i did with my life.

In Nov, 1996 I met my husband in a chatroom. Things haven't been the same since. My husband it a GREAT guy and does his best for me. We want to have children though and watching TV and playing on the computer just doesn't work for a mother all the time. So I realized that I would have to get some help. Since Allen and I got married in September 1997 I have been trying to find that help. It has been a really rough road. There isn't much help out there for someone who is so far past their injury. Recently however, I found a psychologist who seems to have a way to help me. I've only been seeing him for a couple weeks now so I don't really know what this will do for me, but I'm doing it and we'll find out. It maybe that this cognitive therapy thing that he is trying with me may be just the thing.

God Bless you all

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