My name is john and my screen name is jonan. I've recently been diagnosed with a large aneurysm on the anterior communication artery. In addition I have a AVM on the lateral aspect of the right lateral ventricle and one in the posterior fossa on the left. when I found out about this I gave up and was ready to die because having only one lung My complications were high, but since I met Bill maples site and this tbi site I want to live today don't want to live in pain , paralysis, blindness, vegetation. I'd rather be dead. But I believe God has a purpose for me I have had a hard life and I'm still alive today so apparently there's something for me to do before I leave this plane. What it is I don't know but I don't want to leave physicality at this time I know I'm fortunate that the aneurysm and AVM hasn't ruptured yet. It still scares the bejeesus out of me. I would appreciate any support..I feel so alone at times

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