I have just had a 1 year anniversary of my accident. The main problems I have been diagnosed with to date are chronic pain in lower back upper back and neck. At first I was diagnosed with concussion and told it would go away after 6-8 weeks. That was 1 year ago. Then I was told after neurological testing I had post concussion syndrome. These are the medical realities of my accident that I live with today.

The most frustrating and overwhelming part of the accident and my condition that I deal with is not the pain and the electrical jolts I feel constantly nor the lack of ability to concentrate read a book or even 1 page of a book and remember it the lack of ability to organize my thoughts some times or the lack of ability to talk with people and not forget what I was talking about. The most frustrating and overwhelming part of this accident is I do not have physical scars I did not go into a comma I did not hit my head that I remember. I did not break any bones or bleed in any way. And yet I have so many problems I have lost my business and my income, the losses financially and monetarily are staggering I had to give back my jeep that was leased as I am not able to pay for it any longer and even if I was able to pay for it I can't drive more that half an hour without my eyes going on me so that I can't focus on the road.

The worst part of this accident to me is the family and friends and people that I know or for that matter people that I meet for the first time that look at me and say what is your problem? You look fine. You look normal. I guess I have to admit that before my accident I always assumed that people with problems would have a certain look about them. You would be able to look at them and say oh you have been in an accident. That's the problem I don't look like I have had an accident I don't have any physical scars. Yet any one that has been in an accident knows that even if you have physical scars the scars within are much more severe and take much more time to heal.

To all of those people who write in and tell there stories I say keep up the good work. I have read some compelling stories about courage and desire. I am writing my story for the people that look fine look normal. My hope is to heal the scars within me so I can not only look normal (what ever that is) but be normal as well.

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